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I’m not going to lie, today was difficult to get through. I had thoughts about trying to reset my computer so how to make money fast ways I can watch pornography and masturbate again, and I did test my filter twice. The first time, I tried installing a different browser to see if I how to make money fast ways could access porn (turns out I couldn’t unfortunately). I also tried accessing the pornography portal on my TV, which was blocked successfully by the password. During this day, I also was looking at memes, some of which were on the edgy-er and triggering side, but I didn’t actively seek out these types of images. Week three was challenging, and today was difficult considering I had the entire home how to make money fast ways to myself.

I was slightly paranoid about my new hair-style, but I realized that I was over thinking it. It honestly looks great, and though there is some slight baldness seen in the how to make money fast ways back, this will be fixed in 3 weeks when I return how to make money fast ways for my follow up appointment. I feel better now having a hair-line back and no longer appearing bald in the front. I do have a slight bald spot in the back, but I’m sure no one will notice. In reality, no one is paying attention to my head as much how to make money fast ways as myself. My hairline is intact now, and I have good density right down the middle to how to make money fast ways give that really good trimmed look. Anyway, I’ve been checking myself in the mirror way too much how to make money fast ways today. It’s probably contributing to my anxiety.

Anyway, I guess I’ll have to wait three more weeks till I can how to make money fast ways get the final look I want, though I look great now. It’s honestly a serious change from my bald appearance. I’m going to have to buy a trimmer and the how to make money fast ways anti-shine cream to have the right look. Though I don’t have long hair anymore, having this low maintenance look is honestly the best thing how to make money fast ways I did for me. I look tougher, masculine, and better than when I had hair.

I am sort of upset at the amount of edging how to make money fast ways I did today and the slight seeking of P-subs. Though I didn’t PMO, I did not exercise my willpower as much as I how to make money fast ways should. I did resist the temptation to reset my computer and how to make money fast ways watch porn again, which I could of easily done considering I had the how to make money fast ways entire day to do it at home. Tomorrow, I’ll be with my parents the whole day so I how to make money fast ways won’t have such a luxury nor opportunity to do so.

I knew this day would come unfortunately. It turns out K9 software protection was bought out an how to make money fast ways even larger company (norton anti-virus), making the software officially defunct. Now this isn’t a reason to reset, but because of the software no longer working, I willingly reset by testing it this afternoon. It was an unfortunately mistake, and I regret every moment of it since it happened how to make money fast ways today. It was my fault, because for the past 2-3 days I was edging little by little, constantly looking for more seductive imagery and edgier memes.

Fortunately, I’ve installed qustodio and focusme on this computer. Both programs essentially porn-proof my computer (with added complexity which I will not share in-case other users do not want to know ways to how to make money fast ways bypass these systems). These programs are up to date and fully functional, and I’ve given the passwords and credentials for my father to how to make money fast ways hide (he does not know why he is hiding them). Although I shouldn’t rely on these programs for maintaining my reboot, they add an additional layer of difficulty for me so how to make money fast ways that I won’t be tempted to reset.

I made this mistake of not relying on my willpower, but I knew that I would have to reset this how to make money fast ways computer eventually and get rid of K9. If K9 was still functional and not bought out by how to make money fast ways a larger corporation, this likely would not have happened. Nevertheless, I’ve moved on to better software and an updated tool-belt. My reasons for resetting were namely browsing mindlessly on google how to make money fast ways images and being home alone all day.

My phone broke today unfortunately, so I’ll have to buy a new one. I should be cautious, because I’ll have to reinstall the blocking software again on my how to make money fast ways new phone without giving in. Tomorrow I’ll go to the store and look at phones, then maybe I can come with my dad and set how to make money fast ways it up in front of him. That way, I won’t be inclined to reset/relapse. Today I didn’t really have any urges or temptations. Though I did feel general arousal, I didn’t really pursue anything. I’m going to keep my promise and not browse google how to make money fast ways images without reason. It’s really a snowball effect: start looking at memes, see an edgy meme, follow through the with the edgy meme, end up edging and seeking out pornography. It snowballs to a reset.

I need to remind myself that this is a journey how to make money fast ways of willpower and not a journey of forced abstinence. It doesn’t matter how long I stay clean or how long how to make money fast ways I can resist temptation; it’s how well I can handle urges and discipline myself. Tomorrow will be another day where I’ll be home alone. I’ll use the time to play on the computer and how to make money fast ways finish up yard work. I’m about to finish setting up the front lawn (it’s looking great by the way). My phone unfortunately broke, so I’ll have to reach out to my accountability partners through how to make money fast ways the forums.

On a side note, in two more weeks I’ll be going to get the second scalp micropigmentation procedure how to make money fast ways done. This will hopefully be the last step before my completed how to make money fast ways look where the crown is no longer bald. There’s a slight emptiness at the crown, but this will soon get covered after the second coat. I just can’t wait. It’s the crown that I’m most worried about, as my frontal hairline and middle vertex are well covered. I can’t wait for the next appointment on june 6th. I’ve been thinking about my hair less and less once how to make money fast ways I got this done. I no longer am checking the mirror as often, feeling self-conscious about my bald spot. I’m taking my hat off in public places and sometimes how to make money fast ways forgetting to wear them when I’m outside. It’s a real blessing no longer having to be self-conscious about my head. Combined with nofap, I should have my full confidence again once school starts. I’m really looking forward to meeting new people while in how to make money fast ways school.

I’m pretty upset because my treatment has faded quite a how to make money fast ways bit at the temples and crown. It upsets me, because it looks like the sides are receding again, and the bald appearance is back. I’ll have to tough it out for two more weeks how to make money fast ways until I return for my second scalp-micropigmentation session. As stated by another person who received this procedure, it is normal for fading to occur 2-3 weeks after the first session. The same applies for regular tattoos, as it is a normal part of the healing process. My concern is that I don’t want to spend the money for a third session how to make money fast ways mainly due to travel expenses and touch-up costs.

On a side note, I did have some urges today to reset. I mulled over for a few brief minutes about whether how to make money fast ways I could get past my computer software, but I threw the idea away. I played less on the computer today and did more how to make money fast ways yard-work. I finished up the front yard and started prepping the how to make money fast ways backyard. Tomorrow, start another row of bricks in the front yard between how to make money fast ways the neighbor’s yard and mine, and I’ll cut up all the grass and lay the under-fence borders in all the other areas.

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Congratulations on getting this far – many people in the world don’t have the will-power to go from having PMO constantly in their lives how to make money fast ways to going without it for almost a month, so kudos to you. I do find that it is far more difficult to how to make money fast ways not go through no PMO when we just look at how to make money fast ways memes and are just relaxing at home – sometimes it can cause you to lose out on your how to make money fast ways will-power. You’ve already come so far from college and going into how to make money fast ways medical school (seriously, that’s an amazing achievement and you should be proud of how to make money fast ways yourself) will certainly help you get to the place you want how to make money fast ways in life.

I’m not sure if you have already tried meditation, but I feel like meditating for a quarter of an how to make money fast ways hour to around twenty minutes does help sometimes when I’m managing my stress – and by also following the principle of ‘if it doesn’t matter in five years, don’t think about it for five minutes’, I find it far easier to deal with stress-management and with your concern with medical school regarding this how to make money fast ways I feel that this could help. Good luck with everything, my friend.

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