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It’s not a great style to copy is it really, I say to S. When we’re back home. But we genxers didn’t have much to work with. The idealism of the 60s, the rockstar fantasies of the 70s, the balls-out tackiness of the 80s were being recycled in various ways to make money with no money ways, but many of us didn’t really believe in it – it didn’t feel true for us. We were starting to see through how the society of ways to make money with no money the baby boomers worked. We were a small generation up against a mass of ways to make money with no money self-centred people busy shoring up their social capital at the ways to make money with no money expense of the rest of the world. We instinctively felt we were fucked, so we withdrew and became self-centred in our own ways while the boomer generation passed ways to make money with no money over or assimilated us. We became apathetic. For the committed slackers ‘generation X’ itself was a lame corporate label. Yet it was appropriate for a crossed-out generation. It meant: ignore us, we don’t care – at least until we’re absolutely forced to conform. We were hard to market to: what do you sell to people like that except nirvana ways to make money with no money cds?

The apathy of those years never really left me. It mingled with the anxieties provoked by school, girls, the need to impress and succeed, but it never left. It grew into a general feeling of meaninglessness. Even in fits of worry about an exam, a date or a wasted day, there was the sense of a neutral, indifferent dimension hovering over everything, levelling all the events of life. I looked for ways to give this feeling substance, to turn it into something you could live by. I read novels, went to plays, galleries, lectures, museums. I started reading about religion and going to churches and ways to make money with no money temples. When I finished school I went to london to do ways to make money with no money a degree in religious studies, but the feeling stayed with me and I dropped out ways to make money with no money after a year. After a year of manual work in denmark, I went to norwich to study art history and literature. I discovered more and more works of art, and people like me. And when we were taught to view these works with ways to make money with no money suspicion and take them apart, ‘unpack’ their constitutive elements, it made sense to me. It was how I’d felt all along: so-called meaning happened along arbitrary horizontal lines: one element along the line, however important the author thought it was, could in principle be replaced with any of the others; it was almost impossible to ‘mean something’. Meanwhile life still felt like a kind of photographic negative. But of what? What could the positive be now?

When they’ve left life plods on as usual. S. Does her work as a research assistant for a historical ways to make money with no money project involving different universities, and makes monthly trips to the libraries in norwich or ways to make money with no money cambridge. I translate to the tedious sound of pigeon coos from ways to make money with no money the eave which remind me of endless suburban afternoons growing ways to make money with no money up, or waiting to grow up. The evenings stretch out like great clouds over the horizon… the last days, the days after the last day. Life isn’t short, it’s long, long…

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Later, when I no longer had energy to walk, I’d lie in bed thinking of death. So this is what it comes to, I thought, you must be ill. Ill. I’d repeat the word in my head. This is what it comes to, I thought, something in me is ill and look, now I’m ill in a dark room. It was almost a relief, to have only one thought, one sincere wish. Almost easier to be cornered, really cornered and taken out of all fakery.

The monologues I’d have in my sick mind! It’s an illness, you see, I’m ill. There’s the death drive and there’s the life force and the life force is dying, it’s turned into the death drive. This is what it comes down to, it’s logical. The illness has grown inside me, fed on me and now it’s ready. It’s grown in the dark, but now you can see it. You thought I was lying, now you see I wasn’t, surely you see. It grows in the dark until it comes to this ways to make money with no money and look at me now. It’s an illness, there’s a name for it. Soon you’ll see.

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You’ve run out of options, what’s holding you back? You coward. You couldn’t make your life work and now you can’t even make this work. You’d panic and go home with your tail between your ways to make money with no money legs like you always do. You’ve got nothing left but me but you can’t even listen to me, you can’t even do that right. Your whole life has come down to nothing and will ways to make money with no money keep coming down to nothing and you know it. You’ve wasted all your options, you don’t need me to tell you that, so just do it, do something real for the first time in your life.

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Sometimes a small shift of attention seemed to change everything, or rather illuminate what was already there, like a light turned on in a room. I started walking again, and often ended up at the parish church. It was always empty. I sat on a pew where the light came in ways to make money with no money through the stained-glass window. A vanishing speck inside – what? I felt an overfacing power and I felt it withdraw, and that gave me a strange hope.

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Only one real thought, however kitschy it sounds: how to live in the face of the impersonal. Not to cover it over with your own stories and ways to make money with no money emotions but to accept it and yourself with it. To keep the world’s indifference to you open in your life, like kierkegaard’s wound: ‘keeping a wound open can also be very beneficial: a healthy and open wound; sometimes it is worst when it skins over.’

Freeing! Consider the nightmare of living in a world covered up ways to make money with no money entirely by stories – or worse, one story – that all are required to accept: where every thing, act and thought must conform to a certain end; where no chink is left open in the armour of ways to make money with no money the everyday for the impersonal to show us, if only for a moment, the smallness of our stories and our true powerlessness and ways to make money with no money power.

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