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Life after open heart surgery has been revolutionary because with ways to make small money every step I take I feel strong. I feel capable. I am capable. There has been a restoration of joy. There has been a revitalization of enthusiasm. I want everyone to share in that experience. Investing the time and/or money and such into finding/sharing the spark and magic of life and giving each ways to make small money and everyone permission to bathe in that joyous feeling. Bad. Better. THE BEST!

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